Confused.

"Broken lights on the freeway
Left me here alone
I may have lost my way now
I haven't forgotten my way home"

-Broken by Lifehouse

I am confused, mentally and emotionally tired. I do not know what to do. I have lost the perspective to do things the way I used to do 'em.

Stress. Peer pressure. You can never survive without them. Hell, you cannot even avoid thse things. I miss the life I lived when I was 10. When I was curious, carefree and oblivious to what reality sees.

Saturday afternoon. I went to SM Sta. Mesa with my mom and sister to help her get some important files. As we were going, it rained and my chucks got wet. My feet were soaked and my jacket was sticking in on me. It was hell. But we survived. :)

My mother, to tell you is a woman of faith and of many words. She nags (don't all moms do that?) and says bittersweet words sometimes but she's great. We fought a few times that led to me almost wounding my right arm, but we learned to respect each other.

My father, a man who works for a living and I barely spend time with is full of sarcastic and irnoc humor that I got from. We argue a lot but we're fine.

My sister, a child merely of 5 and doesn't give a damn to whatever happens would always be nice enough to lend me her pencils and crayons when I need it. We're fine.

My brother a rebellious ass full of dark humor and a mouthful of garbage that comes out of his mouth is the problem. Apparently, we never agree on anything these days, the main reason I ALWAYS skip dinner every weekday. We have gotten to the point where we realize we are different and have our own different opinions. It's crazy.

At school, I have friends whom I deeply care about. Friends who I trust carefully and where my pressure eases. Sure, teachers come by and give us heavy load but I'm happy for it.

Teacher's never see me. I can tell. I failed 4 Math quizzes last quarter. I am the shy girl who is filled with ideas.

But................to tell the truth. I have never really known who I am.

Good Afternoon.

"Can we fast forward to go down on me?"