.....I don't know what to do right NOW.

The 8 things you KNOW/CARE/DON'T CARE/DON'T KNOW about me.

RULES:
1. Post the rules.
2. Each tagged person must tell 8 things about themselves.
3. At the end you have to tag 8 people and post their icons in your journal.
4. Go back to their page and leave a comment saying you tagged them.
5. No tag backs


So here 8 things you guys don't know about me:

1. I'm addicted to coffee and chocolate (but I'm not allowed to drink coffee)
2. I love the lead singer of the Cab. :)
3. My favourite thing in this world is my iPod.
4. I daydream a lot.
5. I'm a huge FUELED BY RAMEN and DECAYDANCE fan
6. I always almost get hit by either a red honda civic car or a black pick-up truck/van.
7. I'm sarcastic.
8. I dislike gory things.

8. The number 8. August maybe?


Yeah. Today's August 1. Saturday. Next week, would be full of exams and well, CAT. Civil Advancement training. :)

I honestly don't know how to begin the script. I'm opn writer's block. My head is blank.....

Or maybe I'm just hungry? Haha....


I'm playing texttwist, checking Bden's twitter and just roaming on dA. Much to do, but ignoring for a moment. LOL.

Anyway, that's about it. Northern Downpour at the window.


Happy weekends.

I'm READY now!

"I'm ready."

Saturday morning, about to go to George Ryan's house to finish the script for our tableu before Monday.

August is the start of another hell-ish month. It's raining, and I feel like all my juggled balls are gonna fall down if I don't catch one of them.

I'm ready to do this. I'm ready. I'm ready.

I can do this. Because I can.

And I'm off to Ryan''s house. Got to avoid traffic. Updates will be later.

Sincerely,

Cj

Can we fast forward to go down on me?

I watched time fall into separate pieces of memories I would cherish.

Today, is very...well normal. Just doing my Economics homework and listening to the full song version and single called "New Perspective" by Panic! at the Disco.

So I have a lot of projects to do for the month of August, I'm gonna have to make everyone in our group to have the practice on Saturday to avoid the humiliating pain and embarrassment I felt last year.

The quiz on Trigonometry was half-bad and half-good. Lost the time to answer the questions at the end. Bull----.

Food Sale was a success, I was told that we earned like 9,000 pesos yesterday. :) It was stressful, but worthy.

....Is it me, or was there a sexual reference in the song? .....

.....So much love songs.....

~***~

I don't exactly know who I am. It's weird. I don't know myself. I don't have amnesia. I have trouble figuring out what I want in my choices. My friends say they know me ALL TOO WELL. The emo who writes for absolutely no reason. The kid who does it all.

Yet, they really don't know me as much as I don't know myself. How can I fast forward on me?

People dislike me because of things I do. Because the way I look, the way I act. It's easy to judge someone whom you don't know. It's bullshit.

"Because If I continue watching, I'll lose the traits that worry me"

I'd live a life of solitude if I want them to shut their mouths. My friends would go watch and protect me for who i am. I hate it. I hate people protecting me because it makes me feel helpless and pitiful. I HATE being pitied. It's sh*t. I try to be proud of what I do and try to learn from my mistakes.

.....Because I wanna be praise from a new perspective.

And I don't wanna live a life that used to be comprehensive.

And we'll go dancing in the rain....

Monday Afternoon.

Not much to say, busy for the upcoming food sale, tomorrow. And waiting for the "New Perspective" singl out tomorrow. MUSIC VIDEO ALREADY GUYS!

No classes today because of the State of the Nation Address and the "Iglesia ni Cristo" celebration.
So I'm here at Ryan's house typing. We're just bout to print the tarpouline. Up there ^

Thank you Mina! :D


We're going now, to have this tarpoulined now, before it rains.

Goodbye.

P.S. The new bassist for Panic! at the Disco is hot! :D

A New Perspective

What is Perspective?

According to Wikipedia, "context of vision and visual perception, is the way in which objects appear to the eye based on their spatial attributes".

According to my other self, Perspective is a new goal on which you want to achieve. Something you always see, and something you can always feel."

Today, has made me realize that my perspective of this world has always been mixed with the world of my own. A mixture of fantasy and reality that I can't always easily explain and understand. I'm crazy it seems. Or one may say it's just the effect of drinking too much coffee 4 months ago. But, it's always been that way since the morning I woke to a new life 4 years ago on the 20th of May 2006.

"I wanna live a life from a New Perspective"

It seems early, but my adviser told my mother how much of a good and responsible student I have been these days. Just listening to the words, it seems that I changed a lot since I realized a lot of things in my life. From the time I had a doubt of faith, to having a new perspective of who I am and what I want.

I had just listened to a snippet of "New Perspective" by Panic! at the Disco. (which gave me an idea to write this update) The song or...snippet that will be featured on Megan Fox's new movie "Jennifer's Body" is about falling in love....says my source and my friend. Ha, ha....doesn't even seems to be.... IS Brendon Urie in love? That is her question.....Keep dreaming sweetheart.

I have a lot of stuff to do this week. I'll be memorizing Martin Luther King's "I Have a Dream" excerpt speech that will be presented next next week. Our annual food sale on Tuesday, a quiz on Trigonometry on Monday about those functional terms and a project in Health due next month. So far, I'm getting better at both relaxing and balancing these things on my head and my hands.

Damn, I also have a feature article due on August 3 about "Colonial Mentality". And to think I thought we wouldn't have our classes on Monday because of the State of the Nation Address. *sigh*

Yesterday also was hell. Glad that it was over. We didn't have time to finish the section logo and my poster look like sh*t. (lol) ALL BECAUSE OF A STUPID COMPUTER THAT TAKES 5-10 MINUTES TO BE CLICKED AT.

"Stop there and let me correct it."

It takes patience to learn something. I'm letting things go by freely these 4 years being an experienced high schooler. It took me 2 years to learn that God doesn't give me things that quickly. I don't have to blame him for my mistakes because I know it's free will at work here. I love that guy because he gave me a "new perspective" on life. I'll have to stop here and let HIM correct my mistakes. He wants us to live life from a new perspective. And I love him for that.

Reader, i may not know what I want from my perspective, but I know what I NEED.

♥Happy weekends.
~Cj

I Can feel the Pressure...

DAMN IT! GOD! I'm so tired, busy and sleepy this week. Thank God, the teachers gave less assignments this week.

I have an upcoming contest tomorrow, (poster making about the Nutrition Month on Adobe Photoshop Cs4) after classes, and I'm damn nervous! God.....please help me. Mina (my partner) is a bit nervous too. And who wouldn't?

So, okay. Luckily, I've been able to balance things out. Despite the pressure on me, I managed to keep calm, relaxed and steady. I passed of the quizzes set this week w/o reviewing them overnight. Cool. And got some approval ratings from some of my teachers (I don't know about tomorrow) Lucky, we have the annual mass tomorrow.

*sigh* SENIOR IS HELL.

Although I just realized that Math and Physics has become easy for me. (Still, I wonder why I never understood anything from Chemistry last year.) If I listen and focus enough than writing my thoughts and feelings on a parchment (duh....)

P.E. also was embarrassing. Jazz Dance (not Just Dance by Lady GaGa people) was a bit fun but pathetic (on my opinion). Although the Pas De Bouree part was fun and the Jazz Slide. :) I also realized that Kevin Salud (a new transferree) was a GREAT dancer. Not kidding here people. He's like the class' Michael Jackson. If Kev's reading this...YOU ROCK DUDE! :D

I'd like to call Dr. Benzedrine now. (Guess what I'm playing now)

So that's it for tonight. Oh yeah, for those wondering, I'd like to post the lyrics for the new Panic! single called "New Perspective":

I feel the salty waves come in
I feel them crash against my skin
And I smile as I respire because I know they'll never win
There's a haze above my TV
That changes everything I see
And maybe if I continue watching
I'll lose the traits that worry me

Can we fast-forward to go down on me?
Stop there and let me correct it
I wanna live a life from a new perspective
You come along because I love your face
And I'll admire your expensive taste
And who cares divine intervention
I wanna be praised from a new perspective
But leaving now would be a good idea
So catch me up on getting out of here

Taking everything for granted but we still respect the time
We move along with some new passion knowing everything is fine
And I would wait and watch the hours fall in a hundred separate lines
But I regain repose and wonder how I ended up inside

Can we fast-forward to go down on me?
Stop there and let me correct it
I wanna live a life from a new perspective
You come along because I love your face
and I'll admire your expensive taste
And who cares divine intervention
I wanna be praised from a new perspective
But leaving now would be a good idea
So catch me up on getting out of here

More to the point, I need to show
How much I can come and go
Other plans fell through
And put a heavy load on you
I know there's no more that need be said
When I'm inching through your bed
Take a look around instead and watch me go

Stop there and let me correct it
I wanna live a life from a new perspective
You come along because I love your face
and I'll admire your expensive taste
And who cares divine intervention
I wanna be praised from a new perspective
But leaving now would be a good idea
So catch me up on getting out of here

It's not fair, just let me perfect it
Don't wanna live a life that was comprehensive
'cause seeing clear would be a bad idea
Now catch me up on getting out of here
So catch me up I'm getting out of here

Very interesting. Can't wait for it on Tuesday...err....Wednsday here in my timeline.


Goodnight and Good Day people!
CJ....


TWITTER and dA

Calm Before Storm

Good afternoon people.

Today has been a very rainy yet messy day for me. First off, I got rejected at the church I was applying for, so I had to look for another one tomorrow. Damn. Then I got a 1 hour speech of how I was so "Arrogant" when I try to talk with other people. (That, I accept)

Anyway, this week has been a total major bore for me. Classes were suspended for 2 days last Tuesday due to the A (H1N1) virus. Geez, wonder if the school would close down when I tell them I have the meningitis. LOL. Then, yesterday, classes were (again) suspended due to the storm called "Isang". I just noticed that the name "Isang" goes with my old nickname "Izza".......Woa.

So far, nothing interesting happened. My Computer had a new virus, thus I cannot type properly without getting pop-ups. So hence, I won't be able to submit the article this Monday. Damn it.

Ah god. Why does everything has to go wrong?! I miss George already. :( And my friends, Alvin, Jonah, Jon-ythan and the two Spencers.

Tomorrow is the start of another week of trials, challenges and frustrations. And I still wonder how I was able to cope up with these sh*ts without breaking down like Sophomore year.

Happy Weekends everyone!

"Set outside my front window, this story's going somewhere..."

- Calm Before Storm
Fall Out Boy

These things will CHANGE

Dear world,

I sincerely apologize for not having the time to update. I've been so busy, school activities has kept me here. I'm happy to say I got qualified as a staffer of the school paper.

Anyway, nothing much to say. I just finished lunch at Mcdonald's with my 2 friends and is about to head back to school after this update for a seminar about the paper.

Senior Year, is though least to say. I spent the last month trying to adjust, and lucky to say that it's a new start and a new opportunity to change and find a place to sit in. It's good to say also, that I have gained a new self-respect and a realization that I can stand up to my unfortunate friends who are constantly bullied in class. (Thank God, that's over) Life still has remained the same, but everything's changed.

Anyway, to my good online friends out there, I will start dAventures since I have my computer back (FINALLY!) It's revised, renewed and better. I haven't got time to post it but as soon as it's done, I'll post a new chapter. :)

Oh yeah, PATD has broken up....sad to hear that. But things will get better. I think that it's a new change for them. I'm pretty excited for the two pairs. The Panic! and the Hillside Sessions. It's a "NEW PERSPECTIVE" for everyone.

So that's about it. Hope everyone's having a fantastic day out.

"These walls that they put up to hold us back will fall down"

-Change by Taylor Swift

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