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NOTED.

2010-02-19T20:07:00.000-08:00

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Weightless at the moment.

2010-01-08T00:04:00.000-08:00

Finished half-part of the year with a minor exam...I should be doing something worth-living. The question is if I should remain obsessed with Fueled by Ramen bands and toy kingdom or actually live up the full responsibility of being a graduating high school student.

Any ideas on how to start?

2009

2010-01-01T23:25:00.000-08:00

2009.

Was the best, the worst...and it taught me a lot. Upon recollecting the shit and crap I went through last 12.00 mn on the morning of January 1st, while listening to the song "Saturday", I noticed I learned a lot:

1. Life is full of ironies (e.g. Winning the Bible Quiz, My annoyance and love for Mr. Ryan Ross and other bull shit I need not to talk about)

2. Senior year is full of vanity crap and fun.

3. College entrance examinations is full of crap especially when Universities hold them all in a month in the first few months of Senior Year. (bull shit)

4. People who thinks you're a huge problem to their lives has serious problems with theirselves.

5. I love my George :)

6. Shane Valdez is hilarious, cute and amazing. The best director I've ever heard of. :)

7. English makes life a living hell when you don't do your requirements under certain circumstances.

8. SCIENTIFIC CALCULATOR IS IMPORTANT. Really.

9. I need glasses badly.

10. Learn to keep my mouth shut...on purpose.

Yes...2009. I love it. I love that year, that I may need a time machine to fix my mistakes and wish they never existed. I love this year because I grew up and moved to a new me, a new house, a new life.

I realize that I need to let go of a lot of things and people need to let go of me. It's been hard, but it's the best. I conquered my fears and learned to appriciate the given facts of life. I learned not to be shy and to stand up and let my emotions and thought be heard.

And maybe that's the reason I hate New Year's Eve. I hate letting go of the past year's events and moving on to a new year of crap and bullshit, of glory and happiness of new blessings and failed hope. But that's how it's suppose to be. And that's the way the cookie's suppose to crumble. I need to deal with that.

Happy New Year.

Leaving Back for Good.

2009-11-30T00:02:00.000-08:00

Hello. World.

Lately, I haven't had the time to update, or in a sense, I got bored and lazy to update. I've been pretty busy these days and the most highlighted one is the whole writing process of the script for our one-act play, finishing my first episode (which btw took me 5 hours to write) and my 3 chapters of A Story of a Girl.

I miss writing in dA but unfortunately nothing lasts forever. One must leave something behind in order to move on to the next level. And one of it is leaving a home you once seeked refuge in. Yes, I do "work" in a new home now. It's called Panic! at the Disco's official forum. Yes. I'm currently happy there.

I also went on a retreat with my class like 2 weeks ago. To say the least that, nothing really changed much in the class, but at lease I'm seeing much nicer people who used to ignore me. :)
I guess I also had an increase of faith in God which brings me back to the light side...for now. Besides the bad food there, I also got 2 hours of sleep and no shampoo. Yeah, and my mom got late in picking me up from school when we got home. Thanks Mom.

A lot of pressure. I'm taking an entrance examination on the University of Santo Tomas on Sunday, script due tomorrow afternoon, a Math quiz that's as long as the Book of the Dead, projects next week, our one-act play group presentation on the 11th and songfest on the 5th. Wow.

Speaking of school, I really hope that they'll be releasing our paper (damn it) this Christmas. I've worked and sacrificed my sleep to pass those things. *sigh*

I might do a year-end list for everything I screwed up and accomplished this year. Really.

What About Me?!

2009-10-24T20:58:00.000-07:00

I feel left out. :(

Apparently, exams are over (for now) and yet everybody's busy talking about College Entrance Examinations.....

WHAT ABOUT ME?!

*sigh* College is a long way up there but is only a quarter short from where I'm standing. Mom says I'll catch up on December for the exams UST, CEU and wherever the wind blows. But come on, I feel pressured by the fact that everyone says I may not qualify. Argghhhh

I haven't even turned 15 yet. For all the teeners out there who are so grossed with their boyfriends, facebook friends and sex, here I am worrying about my college entrance exams, grades and Ryan Ross' fucked up song. Life has its double knocked up on me.

OTHER NEWS:

HELL YES! Jennifer's Body is out on Wednesday! (about time it got here T_T) Although I'm excited yet scared to watch it (my mentality is at stake) I loved the posters. :D I even have the soundtrack on my iPod (*NEW PERSPECTIVE*) :)

Ryan and the rest are gonna watch while I'm stuck on a road trip going back home. Damn it. Speaking of home, I was just finishing packing up my clothes and drawings this morning. Yep, I'm moving to a new house. :D About time I finally get a room. Haha.

P.S. I just cheated on an exam. Or in this case, I just let somebody else cheat on me. Nice trick. I can't believe cheating is fun. Especially when the smart genuises are copying on your paper. XD
Note to self: ONLY LET SMART PEOPLE CHEAT.

Good day.

Looking Up to Looking Forward

2009-10-10T03:01:00.000-07:00

Simple things can lead to perfect disasters.

Dear reader,

We can't keep on ignoring Nature's silent anger. As a witness to the horrific vengeance and anger of Mama Nature, I can almost say we're on the point of nearing a drastic climatic change if we keep on doing this. So please, small things like saving a piece of paper will save us.

Half of the north is beneath the muddy waters and people are desperate for food. I don't wanna be a pessimist, but helping each other would be a great start. Be an optimist for once. Always keep a bright way out for us.

And damn it this month. Exams and projects are driving me crazy. It's only a matter of time before I blow up from pressure.

Life has a way of ruining myself from me.

Good day.

Calm Before Storm: Part II

2009-09-26T07:05:00.000-07:00

Good evening.

Today is officially the worst day yet somewhat lucky too.

First off our school decided to continue and head on with the plan for the Family Day just this morning. I decided to head on to school as early as 7 to help my teacher and George prepare our section's vegetable salad. Although it gave my left hand a bruise, I still had fun talking to them. :)

So, then we took the veggies to the covered court which was continualy soaked with rain. And damn it for making us go to school in the storm. Me and George decided to stay along just roaming around when we could have gone home and avoided being soaked in the rain. So, yeah it took us 2 hours to realize that, just when the rain reached its highest peak.

Off we go. Just outside school, we decided to take a taxi, knowing that the floods were already high enough for me to use a boat. And since the road back to my place has been closed down, I have no choice but to stay in George's house for the night. (Bongacious sleepover XD) Mom and Dad called and told me to stay here for a while until the floods subside.

We were lucky we were able to make it at her house wet and damaged but alive.

And here I am worrying over my puppy, my family if they're safe and sound like I am. *sigh*

I miss them already. Hoping I can go home tomorrow. George is asleep already. I guess i better do too. G'night world.

~Cj

Wake Me Up When September Ends...

2009-09-24T02:44:00.000-07:00

Good day people.

Today was just ever so stressful. Let's see, I finished my computer hands-on activity 1 minute before the bell rang, George lost her computer notebook (I found 30 minutes later), did my speech on Public Speaking (oh wait, that was yesterday), did my seatwork in Math about polynomials (Damn hard it was) and well, is currently trying to start my 15 page research paper on English (DAMN HARD IT IS! T_T) .

George and I played chess in P.E. this morning. Even though I was close to winning, the bell rang and some fire drill scored out that sent some of us curious and worried. *sigh*

We have Family Day on Saturday. It's some sort of day where you spend it with your family (...duh) XD. Whatever, I'll just tell all about it on Saturday.

Okay, so I'm done complaining....

October 28, is the day the movie, Jennifer's Body will be released. Damn it. A month! I have to wait a month before it comes out. Damn. That, and I owe George her ticket. Argh. T_0

I CAN'T wait for this month to end T_T

Okay...NOW I'm done. :)

That's about it people. :D
Happy Thursday.

SUNDAE

2009-09-19T22:45:00.000-07:00

Good afternoon.

Watching Glee with Jon and Jayshel. Sunday afternoon.

Yeah, that's it.

I just got a puppy today. :D

Downpour

2009-09-12T01:57:00.000-07:00

This week has been fulled of stress, shit and well, stress.

I realized, it's not enough to say "I'll change" without ever applying the action in it. I try so hard these days getting my math good. And so far it did.

I'm proud of myself for getting my quizzes and seatworks high. ^_^

It's raining now, and I had to get home before dark....

Saturday downpour, listening to Paramore's "Brick by Boring Brick". Tonight sounds fine.

I hope so much everything would be alright. It's dad's bday on Monday.

Later peeps.

Rough Week.

2009-09-08T01:46:00.000-07:00

I can't believe I'd get a grade in Trigonometry like THAT. It's like a nightmare that came true. Damn it.

This week is hell. PURE TORTUROUS FUCKED UP HELL.

ARGGHHH.

Intrams, Papers, and major subjects.

*Sigh*

Life sucsk when you needed it the most.

Kissing goodbye to my allowance.

P.S. Gonna go watch "Jennifer's Body next month!" :D

This day is hell. I got good grades. EXCEPT FOR MATH.

No, I didn't fail, I passed because my teacher felt sorry for me. I know I'm suppose to fail in Math, but he passed me because he felt sorry for me. Ouch.

Damn. I'll have to strive hard for an 80+. I can't let all those colleges see a 75 on my card. It's shit! Damn it.

.......................................................I CAN FEEL THE PRESSURE, IT'S GETTING CLOSER NOW!

Lonely

2009-08-29T20:34:00.001-07:00

Lonely.

A beautiful Sunday morning, and here I am, lonely and depressed. Why? Heck, I don't know!

God. I hate mood swings. It makes me think that I have bi-polar disorder and I dont.

*sigh*

One minute, I'm happy, laughing the next, I get depressed because I get annoyed or because I'm just not that normal. Like Hnery DeTamble.

I wonder what that feels like?

You're confused, you don't know what you want, you say you're alright nut you're not and people call you crazy and you're lonely. How is that?

*sigh*

Good Day.

p.s. Happy Birthday George. I love you so much.

Confused.

2009-08-29T00:40:00.000-07:00

"Broken lights on the freeway
Left me here alone
I may have lost my way now
I haven't forgotten my way home"

-Broken by Lifehouse

I am confused, mentally and emotionally tired. I do not know what to do. I have lost the perspective to do things the way I used to do 'em.

Stress. Peer pressure. You can never survive without them. Hell, you cannot even avoid thse things. I miss the life I lived when I was 10. When I was curious, carefree and oblivious to what reality sees.

Saturday afternoon. I went to SM Sta. Mesa with my mom and sister to help her get some important files. As we were going, it rained and my chucks got wet. My feet were soaked and my jacket was sticking in on me. It was hell. But we survived. :)

My mother, to tell you is a woman of faith and of many words. She nags (don't all moms do that?) and says bittersweet words sometimes but she's great. We fought a few times that led to me almost wounding my right arm, but we learned to respect each other.

My father, a man who works for a living and I barely spend time with is full of sarcastic and irnoc humor that I got from. We argue a lot but we're fine.

My sister, a child merely of 5 and doesn't give a damn to whatever happens would always be nice enough to lend me her pencils and crayons when I need it. We're fine.

My brother a rebellious ass full of dark humor and a mouthful of garbage that comes out of his mouth is the problem. Apparently, we never agree on anything these days, the main reason I ALWAYS skip dinner every weekday. We have gotten to the point where we realize we are different and have our own different opinions. It's crazy.

At school, I have friends whom I deeply care about. Friends who I trust carefully and where my pressure eases. Sure, teachers come by and give us heavy load but I'm happy for it.

Teacher's never see me. I can tell. I failed 4 Math quizzes last quarter. I am the shy girl who is filled with ideas.

But................to tell the truth. I have never really known who I am.

Good Afternoon.

"Can we fast forward to go down on me?"

Jokes on Me

2009-08-15T01:00:00.000-07:00

I really, hate it when people don't take me seriously.

Today my best-est friend thought I was kidding when I told her I don't like people walking fast and leaving me out, i told her I usually "disappear" until they realize I'm not there.

She decided to try it on me. I agreed. She walked fast, I saw a coffee vending machine, and got myself a hot milk coffee with sugar for 10 pesos (the cheapest yet tasty coffee ever) It took about 10 minutes for my coffee to be served, and I thought she was just around the corner. I waited for her, looked for her for about 2 hours, then I left Shopwise angry, disappointed and frustrated. I guess too much frustration and sleeplessness takes its toll on me. I walked home alone, met Daniel A. on Araneta Coliseum said hi, and went home....alone.

*sigh* I cried all the way home because I was so frustrated and tired. I hadn't got enough sleep these days and my projects aren't done yet. I thank Jon for texting me if I'd like to hang out with her tomorrow after our Sunday service. I said yes. I love that girl. :)

I have to lie to my parents who thought I cried because of th tableu. I had to protect her. I hate having to hear negative comments about my best-est friend. The only girl who sees me right through. This is the second time that it happened, but I forgive her. She probably was as tired as I was. If she's reading this, I forgive you. I found my way home alone anyway. If you're mad at me, I accept. I just wish we could have found each other this afternoon.

Ahh, friends. You can hate 'em and love 'em. It's these small misunderstandings that makes me love 'em and uderstand and accept them more. I'd miss these small fights and frustrations next year.

Exams were okay. Except Physics. God, I think I'm gonna fail. I hope not lol.

Gonna make a new article now. :)

Happy Weekends Guys!

P.S. Happy 17th b-day to a classmate and an awesome photographer, Jamie! :) You guys can check her blog out here --> dollstrings
She's more talented than I am LOL :)

~C.j.

Bored.

2009-08-13T00:18:00.000-07:00

Life has its moments.

Right now, It just bores me.

Right here, at the computer lab, bored, girls laughing over something, beside me. A geek on my left playing grand chasse.

BORING.

Tomorrow is Exam Day. Another excuse to drink coffee.

That's about it. Happy Thursday. I miss Panic at the Disco :(

CRAMMING never WINS

2009-08-11T03:18:00.000-07:00

ARGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

Yeah. That's what I want to scream right now. I just can't because well, there are college people karaoke-ing behind me.

LOTS OF UNFINISHED PROJECTS! Major Exams, Failed quizzes, graded recitation, church services. tableu's, and an oral presentation of Martin Luther's "I Hae a Dream" tomorrow.

OH.MY.GOD.

So far, I have no idea how to balance myself right now. All the balls on my hands and my head are about to fall down. And if that happens, I probably wouldn't try to care to pick 'em up. *sigh*

I've been having problems lately about my own class, and my teachers. I just can't say it out loud, and I can't tell Ry about it. It's personal. I don't know really. I don't know why. *sigh*

I lost it. My ball for the "LE.. project fell down." I don't have the strength right now to pick it up.

ahh. God. How will I ever get myself back-up?

I'll go where the WIND BLOWS

2009-08-08T20:39:00.000-07:00

"life gets better. and better :) truly, it does."
- Brendon Urie

Sunday morning. Just thought of updating some stuff instead of doing my 5 projects and memorizing my piece for Wednesday.

It's been windy a lot. It's like you can fly a kite or feel like walking in a beach, in your own room or balcony. I've been pressured a lot these days, but now, I just feel that life gets better. :)

One thing I know about my life. I like to relax in the middle of a bad and pressured situation. This week we have our major exams. That's on Friday and Saturday. So, I'll probably have no sleep for 2 days. LOL.

I just finished my 1 hour and a half church service just beside Walter-Mart. I'll be doing that to finish my 20 hour community service, cause I won't be graduating or getting my requirements. Ugh. But still, it's better. Jon's with me. ^_^

Wherever the wind takes me, I'll be there. Although sometimes, I might end up in the eye of a tornado. LOL.

So, yeah. Oh, and CAT was awesome! Well, a bit then it became boring. Ha. Paolo and Kuya Terence were awesome officers. :D

And yeah, "What a Catch Donnie", was awesome! You guys should watch it on youtube. :)
Sad that they won't be making any albums for a while though. :(

*sigh* That's about it this windy sunny morning.

Happy Sunday.
~Cj

History repeats itself.

2009-08-04T23:50:00.000-07:00

"For I am here whispering the tenderness of freedom and democracy... I am everywhere...I am you!"

August 5, 2009.

Today, the nation I had lost hope in ever recovering form its incurable sickness has just witnessed history.

And in every tear we shed today, every emotion we let out, we have been called as one nation, to stand up and find the cure to our sickness.

I wasn't born by the time, Mrs. Corazon Aquino had ben elected as a president here in the Philippines. In fact, I didn't even care about anything involving the government, past or present.
But after reading several old history books, i have seen and understood the significance of everything involving the government. Martial Law during 1972 proved to be the hardest thing this country could ever receive.

Until now, nobody has ever forgotten what happened during those times, especially the assassination of Benigno Aquino husband, of the late Cory. Philippines was full of anger and emotion during the funeral of Mr. Aquino, now it seems that the anger has been replaced by love and faith that has bonded us Filipinos, realizing the significance of mrs. Aquino's love and loyalty to this country.

I, as a young 14-year old child with not much understanding in this world, wore a yellow ribbon yesterday, to support DEMOCRACY and FREEDOM she has given us through faith and love. I always keep that in mind.

I saw her personally when I was in my freshman year when she visited the school for some...occasion I forgot about. She was wearing her yellow attire and was very simple and humble in every word and action she expressed. Although I didn't see the significance of that, I always keep that smiling picture of her in my mind.

And today, I had taken the time to write what I have seen right through my own eyes, the love of this nation. I had realized that this nation can still get up and be healed from its sickness if we all know how to give respect to each other and have faith in the Lord.

I am Filipino. And I am proud to be called one. Thank you Tita Cory, for bringing back hope to my own heart.

.....I don't know what to do right NOW.

2009-07-31T21:31:00.000-07:00

The 8 things you KNOW/CARE/DON'T CARE/DON'T KNOW about me.

RULES:
1. Post the rules.
2. Each tagged person must tell 8 things about themselves.
3. At the end you have to tag 8 people and post their icons in your journal.
4. Go back to their page and leave a comment saying you tagged them.
5. No tag backs

So here 8 things you guys don't know about me:

1. I'm addicted to coffee and chocolate (but I'm not allowed to drink coffee)
2. I love the lead singer of the Cab. :)
3. My favourite thing in this world is my iPod.
4. I daydream a lot.
5. I'm a huge FUELED BY RAMEN and DECAYDANCE fan
6. I always almost get hit by either a red honda civic car or a black pick-up truck/van.
7. I'm sarcastic.
8. I dislike gory things.

8. The number 8. August maybe?

Yeah. Today's August 1. Saturday. Next week, would be full of exams and well, CAT. Civil Advancement training. :)

I honestly don't know how to begin the script. I'm opn writer's block. My head is blank.....

Or maybe I'm just hungry? Haha....

I'm playing texttwist, checking Bden's twitter and just roaming on dA. Much to do, but ignoring for a moment. LOL.

Anyway, that's about it. Northern Downpour at the window.

Happy weekends.

I'm READY now!

2009-07-31T19:09:00.000-07:00

"I'm ready."

Saturday morning, about to go to George Ryan's house to finish the script for our tableu before Monday.

August is the start of another hell-ish month. It's raining, and I feel like all my juggled balls are gonna fall down if I don't catch one of them.

I'm ready to do this. I'm ready. I'm ready.

I can do this. Because I can.

And I'm off to Ryan''s house. Got to avoid traffic. Updates will be later.

Sincerely,

Cj

Can we fast forward to go down on me?

2009-07-29T03:35:00.000-07:00

I watched time fall into separate pieces of memories I would cherish.

Today, is very...well normal. Just doing my Economics homework and listening to the full song version and single called "New Perspective" by Panic! at the Disco.

So I have a lot of projects to do for the month of August, I'm gonna have to make everyone in our group to have the practice on Saturday to avoid the humiliating pain and embarrassment I felt last year.

The quiz on Trigonometry was half-bad and half-good. Lost the time to answer the questions at the end. Bull----.

Food Sale was a success, I was told that we earned like 9,000 pesos yesterday. :) It was stressful, but worthy.

....Is it me, or was there a sexual reference in the song? .....

.....So much love songs.....

~***~

I don't exactly know who I am. It's weird. I don't know myself. I don't have amnesia. I have trouble figuring out what I want in my choices. My friends say they know me ALL TOO WELL. The emo who writes for absolutely no reason. The kid who does it all.

Yet, they really don't know me as much as I don't know myself. How can I fast forward on me?

People dislike me because of things I do. Because the way I look, the way I act. It's easy to judge someone whom you don't know. It's bullshit.

"Because If I continue watching, I'll lose the traits that worry me"

I'd live a life of solitude if I want them to shut their mouths. My friends would go watch and protect me for who i am. I hate it. I hate people protecting me because it makes me feel helpless and pitiful. I HATE being pitied. It's sh*t. I try to be proud of what I do and try to learn from my mistakes.

.....Because I wanna be praise from a new perspective.

And I don't wanna live a life that used to be comprehensive.

And we'll go dancing in the rain....

2009-07-26T23:17:00.000-07:00

Monday Afternoon.

Not much to say, busy for the upcoming food sale, tomorrow. And waiting for the "New Perspective" singl out tomorrow. MUSIC VIDEO ALREADY GUYS!

No classes today because of the State of the Nation Address and the "Iglesia ni Cristo" celebration.
So I'm here at Ryan's house typing. We're just bout to print the tarpouline. Up there ^

Thank you Mina! :D

We're going now, to have this tarpoulined now, before it rains.

Goodbye.

P.S. The new bassist for Panic! at the Disco is hot! :D

A New Perspective

2009-07-25T00:05:00.000-07:00

What is Perspective?

According to Wikipedia, "context of vision and visual perception, is the way in which objects appear to the eye based on their spatial attributes".

According to my other self, Perspective is a new goal on which you want to achieve. Something you always see, and something you can always feel."

Today, has made me realize that my perspective of this world has always been mixed with the world of my own. A mixture of fantasy and reality that I can't always easily explain and understand. I'm crazy it seems. Or one may say it's just the effect of drinking too much coffee 4 months ago. But, it's always been that way since the morning I woke to a new life 4 years ago on the 20th of May 2006.

"I wanna live a life from a New Perspective"

It seems early, but my adviser told my mother how much of a good and responsible student I have been these days. Just listening to the words, it seems that I changed a lot since I realized a lot of things in my life. From the time I had a doubt of faith, to having a new perspective of who I am and what I want.

I had just listened to a snippet of "New Perspective" by Panic! at the Disco. (which gave me an idea to write this update) The song or...snippet that will be featured on Megan Fox's new movie "Jennifer's Body" is about falling in love....says my source and my friend. Ha, ha....doesn't even seems to be.... IS Brendon Urie in love? That is her question.....Keep dreaming sweetheart.

I have a lot of stuff to do this week. I'll be memorizing Martin Luther King's "I Have a Dream" excerpt speech that will be presented next next week. Our annual food sale on Tuesday, a quiz on Trigonometry on Monday about those functional terms and a project in Health due next month. So far, I'm getting better at both relaxing and balancing these things on my head and my hands.

Damn, I also have a feature article due on August 3 about "Colonial Mentality". And to think I thought we wouldn't have our classes on Monday because of the State of the Nation Address. *sigh*

Yesterday also was hell. Glad that it was over. We didn't have time to finish the section logo and my poster look like sh*t. (lol) ALL BECAUSE OF A STUPID COMPUTER THAT TAKES 5-10 MINUTES TO BE CLICKED AT.

"Stop there and let me correct it."

It takes patience to learn something. I'm letting things go by freely these 4 years being an experienced high schooler. It took me 2 years to learn that God doesn't give me things that quickly. I don't have to blame him for my mistakes because I know it's free will at work here. I love that guy because he gave me a "new perspective" on life. I'll have to stop here and let HIM correct my mistakes. He wants us to live life from a new perspective. And I love him for that.

Reader, i may not know what I want from my perspective, but I know what I NEED.

♥Happy weekends.
~Cj

I Can feel the Pressure...

2009-07-23T04:16:00.000-07:00

DAMN IT! GOD! I'm so tired, busy and sleepy this week. Thank God, the teachers gave less assignments this week.

I have an upcoming contest tomorrow, (poster making about the Nutrition Month on Adobe Photoshop Cs4) after classes, and I'm damn nervous! God.....please help me. Mina (my partner) is a bit nervous too. And who wouldn't?

So, okay. Luckily, I've been able to balance things out. Despite the pressure on me, I managed to keep calm, relaxed and steady. I passed of the quizzes set this week w/o reviewing them overnight. Cool. And got some approval ratings from some of my teachers (I don't know about tomorrow) Lucky, we have the annual mass tomorrow.

*sigh* SENIOR IS HELL.

Although I just realized that Math and Physics has become easy for me. (Still, I wonder why I never understood anything from Chemistry last year.) If I listen and focus enough than writing my thoughts and feelings on a parchment (duh....)

P.E. also was embarrassing. Jazz Dance (not Just Dance by Lady GaGa people) was a bit fun but pathetic (on my opinion). Although the Pas De Bouree part was fun and the Jazz Slide. :) I also realized that Kevin Salud (a new transferree) was a GREAT dancer. Not kidding here people. He's like the class' Michael Jackson. If Kev's reading this...YOU ROCK DUDE! :D

I'd like to call Dr. Benzedrine now. (Guess what I'm playing now)

So that's it for tonight. Oh yeah, for those wondering, I'd like to post the lyrics for the new Panic! single called "New Perspective":

I feel the salty waves come in
I feel them crash against my skin
And I smile as I respire because I know they'll never win
There's a haze above my TV
That changes everything I see
And maybe if I continue watching
I'll lose the traits that worry me

Can we fast-forward to go down on me?
Stop there and let me correct it
I wanna live a life from a new perspective
You come along because I love your face
And I'll admire your expensive taste
And who cares divine intervention
I wanna be praised from a new perspective
But leaving now would be a good idea
So catch me up on getting out of here

Taking everything for granted but we still respect the time
We move along with some new passion knowing everything is fine
And I would wait and watch the hours fall in a hundred separate lines
But I regain repose and wonder how I ended up inside

Can we fast-forward to go down on me?
Stop there and let me correct it
I wanna live a life from a new perspective
You come along because I love your face
and I'll admire your expensive taste
And who cares divine intervention
I wanna be praised from a new perspective
But leaving now would be a good idea
So catch me up on getting out of here

More to the point, I need to show
How much I can come and go
Other plans fell through
And put a heavy load on you
I know there's no more that need be said
When I'm inching through your bed
Take a look around instead and watch me go

Stop there and let me correct it
I wanna live a life from a new perspective
You come along because I love your face
and I'll admire your expensive taste
And who cares divine intervention
I wanna be praised from a new perspective
But leaving now would be a good idea
So catch me up on getting out of here

It's not fair, just let me perfect it
Don't wanna live a life that was comprehensive
'cause seeing clear would be a bad idea
Now catch me up on getting out of here
So catch me up I'm getting out of here

Very interesting. Can't wait for it on Tuesday...err....Wednsday here in my timeline.

Goodnight and Good Day people!
CJ....

TWITTER and dA

Calm Before Storm

2009-07-18T02:15:00.000-07:00

Good afternoon people.

Today has been a very rainy yet messy day for me. First off, I got rejected at the church I was applying for, so I had to look for another one tomorrow. Damn. Then I got a 1 hour speech of how I was so "Arrogant" when I try to talk with other people. (That, I accept)

Anyway, this week has been a total major bore for me. Classes were suspended for 2 days last Tuesday due to the A (H1N1) virus. Geez, wonder if the school would close down when I tell them I have the meningitis. LOL. Then, yesterday, classes were (again) suspended due to the storm called "Isang". I just noticed that the name "Isang" goes with my old nickname "Izza".......Woa.

So far, nothing interesting happened. My Computer had a new virus, thus I cannot type properly without getting pop-ups. So hence, I won't be able to submit the article this Monday. Damn it.

Ah god. Why does everything has to go wrong?! I miss George already. :( And my friends, Alvin, Jonah, Jon-ythan and the two Spencers.

Tomorrow is the start of another week of trials, challenges and frustrations. And I still wonder how I was able to cope up with these sh*ts without breaking down like Sophomore year.

Happy Weekends everyone!

"Set outside my front window, this story's going somewhere..."

- Calm Before Storm
Fall Out Boy

These things will CHANGE

2009-07-10T21:51:00.000-07:00

Dear world,

I sincerely apologize for not having the time to update. I've been so busy, school activities has kept me here. I'm happy to say I got qualified as a staffer of the school paper.

Anyway, nothing much to say. I just finished lunch at Mcdonald's with my 2 friends and is about to head back to school after this update for a seminar about the paper.

Senior Year, is though least to say. I spent the last month trying to adjust, and lucky to say that it's a new start and a new opportunity to change and find a place to sit in. It's good to say also, that I have gained a new self-respect and a realization that I can stand up to my unfortunate friends who are constantly bullied in class. (Thank God, that's over) Life still has remained the same, but everything's changed.

Anyway, to my good online friends out there, I will start dAventures since I have my computer back (FINALLY!) It's revised, renewed and better. I haven't got time to post it but as soon as it's done, I'll post a new chapter. :)

Oh yeah, PATD has broken up....sad to hear that. But things will get better. I think that it's a new change for them. I'm pretty excited for the two pairs. The Panic! and the Hillside Sessions. It's a "NEW PERSPECTIVE" for everyone.

So that's about it. Hope everyone's having a fantastic day out.

"These walls that they put up to hold us back will fall down"

-Change by Taylor Swift

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One of these Days

2009-05-14T01:26:00.000-07:00

Yeah. Ain't it sweet? That pic was taken like last Christmas....and I miss my aunt who tokk the picture now.

Lately, I've been a mess especially in my own mind. My brain cannot focus at one thought without being interrupted by a vision of falling meteors or a huge tidal wave about to aim right at me. Ahh god.

I haven't updated much because I've been taking a month of here. But I've been adventurous lately, so I spent much of this summer vacation going out of town. Hopefully I can go back to my mother's province before school.

Let's see, I've been to the famous La Mesa Dam. Yeah, I climbed 112th steps just to see a huge barren filled with water. Bo-ring but cool. As I came down those steps I kept singing "Pas De Cheval" by Panic at the Disco causing me to almost had another case of asthma. Dad also made me go to this boat-thing, which reminded me of the music video "That Green Gentleman"...I couldn't actually enjoy that part because I keep thinking of Ryan, Jon and Spencer. I've missed them all too much.

The other day my parents and us went to Tieera Purra. It's a whole private pool resort in Bulacan. It's a 2 hour drive so, i spent the whole of it sleeping and trying to clearly take my mind off of things that should not be thoUght of. Anyway, when we got there, I was pissed...I hate swimming. I never tried to, but still hated it. Anyway, my mother almsot made a scene if I hadn't changed into my shorts and shirt and dive in....so, dived I did. It took me 3 seconds to realize I have hydrophobia. Truth to be told, that was the wrost day ever. God. I'll never go back in the waters again.

Other things that happened? Well, my grandfather's sister just died yesterday, and I didn't know her that much so I felt a little guilty. Still, sad. My mom and sister went to her burial last night at St. Peter's Chapel and bought us ice cream when they got home. Mother told me how aunt Cel was smiling even though she was dead. Dad was freaked out. Ha, ha.

So anyway, that's about it. I'm currently writing a new version of dAventures. And if Ryan is reading this, I had a dream of you the other night. I guess we're still classmates....i hope.

Brendon Urie, please stop appearing in my dreams! God. THE WORST DREAMS HAPPEN LATETLY BECAUSE YOU AND RYAN ROSS WE'RE SHOT! IN THE HEAD! MY GOD!

Jon's right, I should lay off caffeine.

Things are REALLY shaping up to be PRETTY ODD

2009-04-11T01:28:00.000-07:00

Ahh, "prom" night by ~Danni-cj on deviant ART

One of the most worst but best nights ever. :) I miss being a junior.

So anyway, I had a really un-holy but fun and boring week. Without Ryan and Jon to talk to. No Spencer to help out, things are getting boring. *sigh*

Last night, I went to the church to have my sins confessed and pay my pilmirage since it was Good Friday. So yeah, I was a loud mouth so some people got annoyed with me. A photographer, an old lady, and the priest I went to. So after saying my sins I asked him some questions about the existence of God (I have doubts) and he got pissed and told me to read more, pray more, have faith....yadayada....The most outstanding quote I'll never ever forget from him last night was "GO STUDY AND READ THEOLOGY AND PHILOSOPHY" XDDD

It was awesome. So, I also talked to God last night. First time ever after a LONG LONG WHILE of being a "non-believer". Wow. I told him about Panic and Fall Out Boy. How I told him a lot of times about how jerky he was....and other stuff. It made me feel better, increased my faith a little, but there's still a part of me holding on to the "IS THERE REALLY A GOD?" list.

Being a Catholic is confusing.

HAPPY ADVANCE EASTER SUNDAY! (and 22nd bday to Bden Urie!)

- C.J.

P.s. The Cab! The most awesome Fueled by Ramen band I listened. Next to Panic :)

Plans

2009-04-03T01:13:00.000-07:00

Lately rain seems to be falling from the heavens.

Anyway, last Wednesday, after having a ridiculously boring afternoon, my aunt invited us to have dinner at Dencio's below Araneta Coliseum as an after-graduation party my cousin had. So pretty much, I was pissed knowing I'M IN THE PLACE where PATD and FOB had their concerts and wasn't able to go to. Other than eating Sisig and Garlic Rice, I actually drank "beer" for the first time.....It was f*cking horrible. It was blue, and LOOKED delicious....so my mom gave me the glass...and I ended up drinking half her glass and dizzy on the way home. Other than that drink, I got a headache, and threw up 2 hours later while everyone was asleep and slept at 3 am. Just goes to show that BEER is never gonna be on my best beverages.

Okay, so next week, I'll be out of town the whole week I think. Excluding Monday and Tuesday, cause I'll be at school paying my debts and shits in order to get my report card. F*ck. My family and I are going north of Manila. Or south. Not sure. Still choosing, Subic Pampanga...Tagaytay Batangas. I actually wanted to go to Bagiou cause it's coold and has a lot of haunted legends but my mom was doubtful of me cuz.........I might get into trouble. LOL.

And after Brendon Urie's bday, 10 days after that, we'll be going south to the Visayan Region to visit my dad's heritage. He already booked flights for that, so no turning back. Guess this means, I'm in the WITCH hunting season again. Heard lots of aswangs and vampire legends. :D Hope I can catch some!

Wow. I already started reviewing for my College exams. And Math is pure hell. F*ck these Algebra solution. I've always wondered how the hell can i love Geometry when I almost failed Algebra 2 times last last year? Tsk. I'm so weird. Haha

"Only Crazy People find love with me."
- Crazy People
The Wreckers

Country music is love. :)

Summer is just sh*t...

2009-03-29T23:31:00.000-07:00

Today is just a boring day. So far, nothing awesome happened. Usual daily routines like, wake-up, chores, sleep, watch tv, sound-tripping and other stuff no one can relate to.

My younger brother just graduated from elementary but so far, he hasn't graduated from pre-school yet. I woke up late today because i had a weird dream again, something like having a normal day at my classroom when Ryan Ross and Brendon Urie of Panic at the Disco came in. So far, that was the most normal dream I had. The worst was the time when some guy shot Brendon on the head at school in front of me. Yep, weird dreams suck.

Summer, is just shit. I miss going to school. I'm not a nerd, I hate studying Math and Chemistry, and I certainly am a known trouble maker at Religion Class. But, I miss making jokes with my classmates, talk non-stop with my best girlfriends, "Ryan", "Jon" and "Spencer". I miss raising my "post-cards" to the other side of the room. I miss running at the front row, pass notes, make cruel jokes at the teachers and the chilly weather inside the room. Junior year flies by so fast, I didn't even think it would end that soon. This June 2009, I would start a new life, a new step and my last year of happiness.

College entrance exams, My reviewers, that diploma, and that school I'll be entering just makes me feel like I'm a crazed up adult, where in fact I'm only 14 who hasn't even thought of getting a job yet. A fourteen year old girl, who is addicted to the deliciously grinded Nescafe coffee, who finds time to write in her blogs, who writes songs, and dreams a lot. I'd miss that.

Dad's taking us to dinner as a graduation gift to my brother. I'll probably be dreaming again. *sigh*

Hoping I could visit "Ryan" tomorrow. I miss her. :(

Have a nice day everybody.
C.j.

your ordinary, pessimistic loser... .